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Sense and Sensibility.

What you are trying to do now is just temperary.
I know all your deep dark secrets.
And you shall have no way to escape from the fact that you are seriously trying to do something so wrong and awkward.
Something that is not right and it should not be happen.
Even if it really happens, you shall not or never ever think that this happened for a reason.
This is not a joke and it is a serious shit that you could not imagine the worst outcome.
You need to get back on your track and be insistent.


Wipe it out. After tonight.


I love y'all.

The current.

"I'm fine." - I'm not so okay.

"I'm happy for you." - I'm happy but I'm sad too because it's none of my business anyway.

"If you are happy, then I am happy too." - Trying to force myself to be happy as well, just for you.

"I have fun!" - I am so fucking happy that I will kiss your ass. Right here, right now.


I was happy, a minute ago.
Everything seems fine and close to perfect.
I got nothing to worry of and I love how the way it is now.

But, I am a sentitive, emotional human being.

I got feelings too even I don't show it on my hillarious face.
I feel the pains too even I'm putting on a big wide smile with my bad messy teeth on my face.
I got roller coaster ride of ups and downs too.
I am afraid of losing things I like and people I love so much. Just like all the people do.

Yes, I am a sentitive,emotional human being afterall.

Please do not take my sincere for granted.
It will took me a long, long time to recover.
Thanks.

超越自己。

16102012

失望与绝望。
失望是当一个人无法达到目标的时候的心情。
绝望是当一个人彻底地对目标没有了希望的心情。

这阵子同时体会了这两个心情。

失去与放弃梦想真的很残酷。
需要顾虑的事情太多了。
我可以做的事情就是面对这个烂现实。
对我而言，独自面对现实是件很痛苦的事情。
真的痛苦得快失去自我了。

讨厌无能为力的样子，
讨厌没有信心的样子，
讨厌缺乏勇气的样子。

就快连自己长什么样子都不晓得了。哈哈……。