Friday, July 24

Friday without class



We (refer to my fellow course mates here) went to Angkasa to play badminton. Xiao Min was absent, she went to do part-time work at TS. Ha! Exercise day without the exercise freak. Lol. They were so shocked when I told they. (Especially KS.) XD We went to eat something at steven corner after finished our activity. Went home at 4pm like that. Thanks to Johnny for fetching me home. Cause that's very odd that got people can actually fetch me home and that people was actually living far far away, totally the opposite direction from my house! So paiseh...Again, thank you very very much for fetching me home :)

I heard that our genting trip was canceled. I guess there's always got next time. But they did went out some other plan such as cycle at shah alam. That sounds really fun! Hope they won't canceled the plan... Cause I know sometime they were actually "blowing water" only. So, I won't take this kinda stuff seriously anymore. My smelly bro used to tell me that, "Go organize activity yourself if you really wanna go. Be the lead and ask your friends to join." And that's really make sense. If I really got that passion to go to a trip, why don't I take action first? But I have to say is, I'm so afraid to disappoint you, I'm not that kinda person. I mean, being the lead is just not me. But last time I used to do so, went I'm still in secondary school. Being the leader is kinda fun last time. I planned and shared things. But now I don't. I just don't feel like doing this anymore. Maybe is because I am unable to do big stuff like that anymore. Being grow up is different. The males will always in charge of everything because they have that ability and knowledge to do so. People's opinion, chin ee is still a child, no matter inside or outside. I couldn't take any responsible if anything happen. I'm unable to settle a simple thing, such as, when we wanna to go somewhere, they were busy discussing and I just listen, cause I don't know much anything about highways or places. I know, that's acceptable because I seldom went out and I don't drive. Sometimes, I really hope we can discuss together about something I really know a lot and I can talk a lot. Yea, I know this will not happen. Cause I'm still living in my own little small world. A world that I can do anything I want, a world that I don't have to do something that called human talk. And, I'm not ready to get out yet. I'm not ready to cross over the line yet. Just give me some time.. The thing is, I don't know when will I prepare enough to do that.

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