Random.

I always wonder
what would it be if I make another decision on something?
will it ever be any difference?
will it be better?

I wonder.

Sometimes I wish to go back to the past and make changes.
It's not necessary to be good outcome,
but at least I won't be regretted.

I regretted. All the time.
Those decisions I made. Things that I done.
I wish I never do such thing or said such thing.
I'll never be a good lier. suck at it actually.
It usually puts on all over my face when I tell lie and
when I'm not happy about something.

My face is easy to read.
I don't understand why people always think that I'm such a complicated human.
The fact is, I'm not.
I'm just different.
I'm not hard to be understood.
Don't you get it?
Just because I'm not the common one and you treat me like the bad one?
Don't you ever judge a book by it's cover.
Fuck you and sorry to tell you that I'm a pretty young girl.

That's doesn't mean I shouldn't be treat like a female just because
I don't like pink colour,
I don't like girlish outfits,
I don't like to sing female artist's song,
I hate disgusting flirty words,
I hate people whistle at me just because I have a pony tails,
and
I'm not as polite or gentle as other girls.
Eeeww!! This is sick!

What the hell if you think no guys will wanna date me?
Who cares? cause I don't.
I don't see there's any problem cause I'm rude or whatsoever.
Face it! Hypocritical coward.

I'm not okay about everything.
and I don't act to be "it's okay, I don't mind" face when it's not.
I'm straight forward even if it might hurt someone's feelings.
I'm just telling the truth, if you can't take it, fine,
but I won't change my mind.
Sometimes you'll just have to accept the fact that the reality is cruel.
It's not like you'll always get the good one only.
Nothing is perfect okay?

Yea yea so what I'm selfish or a cheapskate?
I don't want any arguments or quarrel..




Just leave me alone.