:l

First thing,
I got really emotional today.
I'm always like this. and I'll always be like this.
Sorry to my sweetheartS if I do hurt your feelings.
As one of my sweetheartS said, I am a person who has this personality.
My strengths are my weaknesses too.
I got too straight forward sometimes, it's good to tell the truth but in other hand, it might hurt people's feelings.
and whenever I have my own decision, I won't easily get influence by people to make a change to my decision, in fact, people might think why I'm so unsocial or why we are not in the same league or why I'm the odd one.
I'm not trying to be the special one. I just wanna be me. myself.
I got so intense sometimes just because of how people will think me.
I believe if you could accept my weaknesses, I could accept yours too.
This is how thing should be. How thing will works. Sort of Ying and Yang.
and sweetheartS will always be my sweetheartS.
Love ya.

Another thing today,
I had a really nice time laying on Xiao Min's bed together with Sok Yee too.
We just have some random topics and stuff.
It was nice. I really love that.
I hope we will be able to do that too in future.
It feels so close together just relaxing around and talking.
Though was nothing important but I appreciate the time we spend together.

Last thing today,
the thing that will NEVER EVER happen and it eventually happpened.
I never thought this would happen because I was kinda "gave up" already.
It's good when I didn't expect any of this to happen and it feels really good that way.
It's more comfortable this way and I hope this thing could just last like this.
A surprise. and I called it faith.
Ever since Alan "found" me back again, I started to believe that we meet and knowing each other for reasons.
I offen to question myself, "There's billions of people in the world, and why do I meet you? Why you?"
Because it just happen for the second times today.
and it proven that, what I believe is true.
It's important to appreciate things that happen around. Even the tiny little thing.
What happens, do happens. Do not let regret happens.

I just felt so incredible and it was beautiful :)
For one moment, I feel so glad that I was cooking that time. haha

X___X

This is what I'm currently facing.

It's like having a hole on my forehead.

and when I need to pick up something from the ground or whenever my face is facing down or even just look down

This is what happen

It feels like the juice is pouring out from a jug

and that's where I will feel dizzy and seriously going to faint somehow

I'm losing it and my brain couldn't help it

hate to be weak :(

Airplanes

i love airplanes

got an airplane necklace

bought it few years back

when my hair is still long

 i got a set of Korean Air's poker card since 10 years old? i don't know

but i never been to Korea yet

had a presentation about 2 famous airlines in Malaysia last year during FM 1 class

and i love these two songs

Airplanes by B.o.B feat. Hayley Williams of Paramore
♥ my all time favourite ♥

 

Paper Planes by M.I.A

i guess that's all?

of course not. 1 more.

i will be in an airplane soon :)

yeeehaaaar!

i am going to thailand very soon

and since i am so terribly FREE these days that i could even ♥ROLL♥ on the wall also not just the floor

so i decided to learn some basic thai language/words on youtube

i introduce this video
simple and easy to learn :)

and i accidentally found that, it's quite easy and fun to learn.

it can be sound so funny and ridiculous that i could LOL alone by myself, alone. yes. still pretty funny!

that funny and weird 1 is "No Problem" in thai.

"Mai~Pen~Rai"

and when you try to speak it with a faster speed, it will become

"买PenDrive"

walao this is so entertaining

started to love the pronounciation
should ask my friend to learn together with me too
but they might NOT interested also lar

by the way
got a date with Miss Ruby tomorrow
we are going to watch BTS - Bangkok Traffic Love Story

yeah thai movie
i am going to learn more now XD

January 2011 is gonna end pretty soon

been busy for a while.
Did you heard me? I mentioned the "busy" word.
Haha

Wondering if it's time for me to update my lonely bloggie while
I'm doing my tutorial questions and it's only half way finish.

Can't even believe myself..
That I let the 1st month of 2011 just pass it like that.
I even didn't go shopping for coming cny.
I got nothing new on me during cny cause I have plan to stay at home though.
But might go shopping during cny by myself or with family.

So, i guess i'll just simply go through some part of my living for January.

Been starting my part time job recently.
Yea, working is tiring for sure.
And it's quite boring too but get to know some new people.
There's only 3 more days to go on.
Hope I could complete it smoothly.
And I missed Kah Yong's birthday party bacause of work.
Uncle Yap even post a comment that really make me feel sad for a while.
"All no shame. Work only."
Like, this is the 1st time I been like that only okay? :(
whatever lar..
As long as I can tell that Kah Yong looked pretty happy during his birthday party from the pic they took that day.

Have hair cut finally.
Not satisfied.
Because it was not the hair cut that i really wanted.
Quite sad for sometimes though I still like my red colour highlight of my hair.
And I will not go to same saloon again. never. ever.
It's been performing badly recently after Ken resigned.
Btw, Ken is the one who have been take care of my hair cut for almost 2 years.
Sad case :(
Will search for other saloon next time.
But I don't think the next time will be in 1 or 2 months lar.
Haha
And I will miss my long fringe too.


And.. Yea.. 1 of my secret been exposed to all my friends.
They found it out through some other people.
And it's quite embrassing when they actually confirm with me about the truth.
I am rather shy when I admitted it.
Althought taking swimming lesson is not something bad.
Cause I was planning to give them all a surprise when we got a chance to swim in a pool.
But I am happy that they actually ask me all of thing about this and that and how.
They seem to be interested to it also.
Glad that they felt the same way too.
Haha

Lastly will be the Korean Drama.
Managed to finished watched 2 drama in a row.
Which are 《我的女友是九尾狐》and

               《玛丽外宿中》


The main male actor is the same actor in 《原来是美男啊》

It's quite nice..  I mean the actor..
Is extremely HOT! my vege haha


guess you'll know which actor i mean if you know me well.
Yea. The answer is 金在旭 haha
He was one of the actor of 《咖啡王子一号店》too.
Been noticed hime since then.


Like his hair really much x100.
Oh my. I feel like I'm always attracted to long hair guy.
But don't you think is quite sexy? yum yum XD


Might go for 《秘密花园》next.
Yalar.. I know I've been addicted to Korean Drama.
Cause it makes me feel happy whenever I'm watching leng zai. So what?

Okay. I think is enough for now.
Gotta get back to my homework so that I could go to bed earlier.

Night :D

我要把我的刘海咔嚓掉。

I feel sad :(

I'm gonna cut my longest fringe ever very very soon.

Though how much I love my long fringe, but long fringe does not suit me well.

My dream is to have a wavy haircut like Dr. Spencer Reid a.k.a. Matthew Grey Gubler.

♥ Oh dear ♥

how much i wish i have those hair

zhan hai hou sok ah!

Anyway

I will still stay my hair lenght with short fringe

something like that in 3 more months haha

have been survey for some hairstyle that suit me more

the most common bob style

had this kind of hairstyle before

might cut my fringe into this length

and i wish to dye a hair colour like this also

 this one not bad :)

want to have a haircut like this ♥

that's all

cause the lenght of my hair now does not have many choices to make changes

but should be no problem to have hair cut and dye my hair before cny :)

might have hair cut in 2 weeks time.

♥~~~~~~weeee~~~~~♥

The 9th Week

30.12.2010
Last day of internship.

Today is same as Monday.
Today is same as Tuesday.
Today is same as Wednesday.
Today is same as Thursday.
Today is same as Friday.

Today is just as usual.
Today is nothing special.
Today is just like today.

It reminds me of my 1st day.
I hate my work.
I am not interested with it.
Cause I always think that it is something that anyone can do it pretty ass good than me.
I am just nothing good at it.

But, now I realized.
I am capable to do far better than my own expectation of myself.
I mean better is not the same meaning of being the top or the best or a pro or whatsoever.
I tried my best to do anything I could and I think I did.
And, I eventually think that I had exceed the limit of my capabilities sometimes.
I could seriously really stress out myself that I thought that I would never do that to myself.
Sick of complaining and the impatient of mine always.
The road is still way too far to complete to become a real person.
It takes your time. It takes your energy. It takes all what you've got.

I never think of being the great one.
I never wanted to be the outstanding one.
Never. ever.

Today, now, this moment.
I want to be something good.
I want to be someone's favorite.
I want to be somewhere special.

I want to improve. More. I need to be improve. A lot.


Today, I have no emotions.

Confusing of feelings.
Suppose to be happy that I finally ended this internship and it's back to uni life again.
Suppose to be sad that I am leaving some people that we've just build up our friendship.

Complexity of feelings.
I hate to go to work cause I hate my lame duties.
I like to go to work cause I like my new friends.

Confession of feelings.
I like to work too, just sometimes.
I hate to hide my feelings, it's depressing sometimes when you can't tell how you feel cause it's shouldn't be, it's restricted.

Well, that's the end of 2010.

Goodbye '10
See ya in 2011.

W A T E R

第一次看见水里的世界

感觉真的很奇妙

原来在水里面也是可以看得很仔细的

真的很神气

无法形容那时候的心情

很兴奋。 很开心。

[无题]

有时候
我真的可以很小气的咯。

乱发脾气也是。

但是
过一阵子就会把事情给忘记去了。

因为
只不过是一点小事而已。

就是酱无聊咯。

A picture of myself

单眼小姐

this will be my best looked in 2010 so far

haha

thanks to xm

ee is hoping to have plans for future

F R I D A Y Mood ( 2 )

watched this movie unexpectedly

not my favourite but i'm totally a fans for the cartoon version

cartoon is way more cooler and interesting.

* heart APPA's voice *
so cute!

This is the sample hair cut that i survey on

before the hair cut

my hair is too awful and messy

like this :

then now it turns out like this :

much-much-much-more-better

during brm presentation last week :

now :

i called it, clean cut.

I can feel that my head is slightly lighter.XD

yes, I can fill in with more things into my brain now!

muahahaha!

F R I D A Y Mood ( 1 )

This will be the detail dairy for what I've been through on

Friday 06/08/2010

I woke up at 630am. Reached uni at 755am.
Used PC from computer lab from 810am to 910am.
910am photocopied some documents and started to wait for shuttle bus. (RM0.60)
Bus reached at 945am and travel from Tasik Selatan LRT to Maluri LRT station. (RM1.00)
Started to wait for RapidKL bus T326 from 1015am until 1145am.
Decided to take a taxi rather then wasting more time. (RM6.80)
Reached Pandan Indah TMpoint at 1210pm.
Wait for my turn until 1240pm and I was having a dilemma.
Started to call my friends for help until 1255pm and finally a decision is made. (RM75 + RM10)
Seattle all the thing at around 2pm? I don't know the time anymore.
Try to get back to Taman Maluri by taking SJ bus no.30. (RM1.00)
I lost direction by traveling way too far and decided to drop off at Sg.Wang.
Took RapidKL bus U46 to go to Taman Segar. (RM2.00)
Reached Leisure Mall at around 420pm and have hair cut at GC. (RM22)
A sudden date with Jia Lin and Nian at 525pm for movie and dinner.
Watched The Last Airbender at 6pm. (RM8.00)
Have laksa as dinner at Taman Segar pasat malam at around 8pm. (RM3.50)
This is the 1st time Jia Lin drive and take me home at around 945pm. (Priceless)

The total time I have consumed for outing : 945am to 945pm = 12 hours
The total money I have spend : RM129.90

I can't believe how much time that I've already wasted.
Luckily there's no class.
Now, I only got RM40 in my wallet.
I have to go to Uni everyday for revision eventhough there's no classes.
For the sake of pocket money.

Don't you ever try to mention that number

Just received 2 wishes through phone and 2 at FB when I'm typing this shit.
Little Red appreciate all the wishes, celebrations and presents.

I got no other words to express my feeling besides saying Thank Q very much.

She is still the same person.
A... boring, childish, boring, childish and boring... Person.
I don't blame her to have a personality like that as long as she is happy with it.
If people can't accept who she is, that is not her fault.

Never blame yourself for not being fantastic because you are special.

And she is still, currently living in her own fantasy world.
Living peacefully that just like she wants.
Love to watch tv and sleep.
Nothing unusual happen and life goes on like that...

Time does not effect who she is but might change who she was.

She loves her parents.
She loves her plushies.
She loves her tee shirt.
She loves her cartoon series and CDs.


Don't expect people to give you love when you don't even love yourself.

It's over 1 hour after 12:03am.
There's more wishes coming in but less than 10.
Little Red don't mind that she is not a famous kid in school.
Average shall be enough.

and
FM 1 midterm was like shit.
Happy Birthday to myself :)

Announcement

Little Red will be staying at home for the whole time beside going to uni for this semester.
No more outing will be available.
Unless she had made the promise before this.

Sorry guys, if I reject your invitation.





Good night everyone :)

C H O P I T O R K E E P I T

I might cut it until this length.

or 

maybe keep it ?

Y O U A R E W H A T I A M

I'm so glad you are still here.
I apologize for what I almost did.
I will still love you no matter what.
And I shall never ever think of getting rid of you anymore.
And I shall never ever feel ashamed.
because you made me realize this is how I am, as a person.


my dear...

miss messy teeth.

I H A D D Y E MY O W N H A I R !

yeah


i've made my promised.


the reason i bought this brand
is because the cover was design
by yazawa ai

peachberry

i have no idea what colour is that XD
but i understand it is not brown colour!

haha

I W A N T T O S H O P S O B A D L Y

out to have birthday lunch with sok yee 

at the garden's

flying chillies (thai food)

 

have window shopping around

finally 

i discover 1 purse that was quite nice in robbinson

and that was 50% now!

omg

but i will still keep on searching 

until i found my favourite

:D

so now 

i had made my

own shopping list 

haha

H A H A

updated my wish list :)

sorry if i looked emo again yesterday.

i can't make the smiley face anymore 

cause i know i was really terribly sucks at accounting.

how much i wish i could make a choice again
but
even if i've took the other path
maybe it won't have any difference too.


FML

I G O T A N E W H A I R C U T

This is me. Today 10/03/2010. 12pm.

Having lunch together with sua loibi little rain

sitting beside me is sok yee, the one who ffk me today.

i forgive you because you are terribly not feeling well :)

After that

At 2pm something

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.

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.

.

This is me. Myself again.

Please don't freak out and

Please don't ask me why

because

I'm just want to explore something new :)

when I'm available to do it

and

I've already love it very much! 

:) Glad that I chopped it off :)

我 承 认 我 是 。。。

我开心就好啦

哈哈哈