:l

First thing,
I got really emotional today.
I'm always like this. and I'll always be like this.
Sorry to my sweetheartS if I do hurt your feelings.
As one of my sweetheartS said, I am a person who has this personality.
My strengths are my weaknesses too.
I got too straight forward sometimes, it's good to tell the truth but in other hand, it might hurt people's feelings.
and whenever I have my own decision, I won't easily get influence by people to make a change to my decision, in fact, people might think why I'm so unsocial or why we are not in the same league or why I'm the odd one.
I'm not trying to be the special one. I just wanna be me. myself.
I got so intense sometimes just because of how people will think me.
I believe if you could accept my weaknesses, I could accept yours too.
This is how thing should be. How thing will works. Sort of Ying and Yang.
and sweetheartS will always be my sweetheartS.
Love ya.

Another thing today,
I had a really nice time laying on Xiao Min's bed together with Sok Yee too.
We just have some random topics and stuff.
It was nice. I really love that.
I hope we will be able to do that too in future.
It feels so close together just relaxing around and talking.
Though was nothing important but I appreciate the time we spend together.

Last thing today,
the thing that will NEVER EVER happen and it eventually happpened.
I never thought this would happen because I was kinda "gave up" already.
It's good when I didn't expect any of this to happen and it feels really good that way.
It's more comfortable this way and I hope this thing could just last like this.
A surprise. and I called it faith.
Ever since Alan "found" me back again, I started to believe that we meet and knowing each other for reasons.
I offen to question myself, "There's billions of people in the world, and why do I meet you? Why you?"
Because it just happen for the second times today.
and it proven that, what I believe is true.
It's important to appreciate things that happen around. Even the tiny little thing.
What happens, do happens. Do not let regret happens.

I just felt so incredible and it was beautiful :)
For one moment, I feel so glad that I was cooking that time. haha

:)

"People are just as happy as they make up their minds to be."
- Abraham Lincoln

I have make my own choice.
I decided to let things be.
No stress. No constrain. No regret.
I just want you to be happy, and I'll be happy, too.
Miss you :)

:)

双喜

临门

cute smiley face :)

I love my papa



Romance

February is the month of love.

I watched couple of movies from the tv every Wednesday.

Both of the movies were not famous I think.

Since I never heard any of it.

But both are worth to watch and I love it :)

The 1st one was "Edge of the Garden" (2011).

The story is almost like "The Lake House" but this one is more towards on ghost love story.

Not actually.. "ghost".

Love the ending though is kind of simple and expected.

The line that touched me and made me tears a bit, "I love you once."

Aww! That is so-o-o ramantic!

The second one, "The Wedding Dress" (2001).

I'm not really attracted by the title and I read the synosis that didn't really impress me either.

Even the poster is worst.

But, you will never know if you judge it by that.

I love the way of how the story connects all the characters and it links everything together.

How tragic was the story and background music was good.

Seeing how couples get along, how they give their cheerish to the other half, how much they actually in love with each other...

How much I wish someday I could be just like them :)

Aww that's just too sweet!

Why am I getting so sentimental these days?

haha

Anyway,

always be grateful, love and appreciate the person who cares about you.

You'll never know he/she might be the one X)

Wishing everyone have a lovely Valentine's Day this month!

04022012

I want to write something
but I don't know what is it.
So, what I am going to post here is what getting on my mind these days.
and it's... kinda.. some crapping nonsense that you could just ignore it. haha

Chinese New Year was as usual for me
every year is the same, nothing much different.
just that I have done some paper cutting stuff to decorate my house
and it reminds me that how much I used to love doing those hand crafts
like, spending my whole day just for completing 1 stuff.
and I do amazed by the "high level" of my own patience sometimes. XD

I used to love art very much.
since I enter uni, I didn't really pay much attention to it by giving myself excuses like "I'm busy, even I'm not, I'll act busy" or "I'm so darn lazy now, I'm sleepy".
I so fucking hate myself. Sometimes.
Instead of wasting time jealousing how other people can do what they like to do, I choose a better way to make myself into a happier person.

By thinking positively, what I can do and how I can do, it takes more energy than starting to do it.
I plan stuff. Always.
But most of it doesn't make out because I didn't bother to action.
As I'm in my last semester now, I think A LOT lately.
About future mainly.
Though I am on 50/50 side believe that "2012 year is the end of the world" thing. haha

It's kinda frustrating when you try to do something that is totally out of your ability to do so.
It happen all the time for me.
But I'm willing to take the risk, accept the challenge, and experience the adventure.
I love learning new stuff :)
Discovering is good.
Being unique is what I'll do. and I'm lovin' it :)

It doesn't matter what you do, because happiness is what matter.
You'll never know what will be in the next 5 or 10 years.
So, don't stop doing what you like!

some random pic.
will try to tie this bun to uni someday XD

Peace :D

:]

もしかしで・・・ 　これは・・・　デスティニー？

If we're the cover..

Went to warehouse sales and shabu with fellow Kakilangs on Thursday.

We seldom hang out on weekdays and it's fun.

whenever since Johnny has a camera, he always take a lot of pictures.

I mean, really A LOT.

and we took some random pic at Lot 10.

I edit it up a bit cause all the backgrounds were from National Geographic which they displayed it on along the hallway.

 So these will be probably looks like when we're on a magazine cover.

Have fun editing the pic XD

I introduce you, NATIONAIL GEOGRAPHIK.

Enjoy.

The topic will be "The Orange Baby Camel".

I name this "The Adventure of South American" (lame!) haha

"Amazing Egypt"

"The Greatest of Vietnam"

"The Mystery of North Pole."

I don't think I will having spare time doing such random stuff in future.

I might become busy or too tired to do these kind of stuff.

I don't know.

Let's just enjoy the time we left as student :)



Count day the last few days

I just finished wrapping the Christmas present for Mr./Ms. XXX

though I feel excited right now

 but

honestly

I had a pretty hard time searching the gift and wrapping it too

I guess is because I'm always care about too much

"Does it look nice?" "Will the person like it?"

Urgh.

I'm glad that finally I made up my mind to buy "this thing" and wrap it "this way".

Hope the person who got my present will feel happy

if not, I couldn't do anything too. HAHA

Merry Merry Christmas to you.

Well,

it's been a week that I "disconnect" to the outside world.

it feels like

I'm isolated.. Again?

Pretty much like a geek now? Maybe.

I'm a walking ZOMBIE! haha

Yea, To-Do-List is still going on.

Hopefully I could finish it up this year.

I did bought something from my To-Buy-List

but

how could I just decided not to buy myself a new Christmas outfit for this year?

Actually,

this year we are not celebrating on Christmas eve or 25th,

and apparently,

I lost some of my Christmas spirit. Just a little bit.

It's fine.

I could just stay at home, watching TV the whole day.

It's kinda my own "culture" to do so since I was a small kid.

Alright, this is random.

It's a skull bracelet that I found from a online blogshop.

Love it very much

when I want something, I'll ask opinion from someone whether it suit me or not

and there goes my brother,

"Can you like something normal?"

"you are a girl, okay?"

"skulls are evil and creepy."

Okay, end of the conversation.

Why?

I think skulls are pretty in shape and everyone have a skull inside their head right?

and I do have lots of skulls stuff. haha



今天心情: 刚刚好。

一大早被叫醒
从蚕茧里爬出来的我
就要被猛烈的太阳晒屁股。
我承认我的脾气很糟，
不过八点多晒衣服简直就是折磨！
要么就早一点啊……

今天很勤劳地在做功课
进展也算不错。

休息的时候就点一点面子书

不过咧，常常不想看到的东西就一直出现。
不是嫉妒，也不是埋怨啦，就，看不爽啊！
怎样!？看羚羊 草枝摆。

我虽小器，不过这件事实在是令我看不过眼。
那时候，实在是无法接受。
总觉得，“哇，是在看不起我吗？”
这简直是侮辱！侮辱啊！

如今，我依然恨你！
我恨你………………………………！！！

不过，这并不会因此影响我的心情。
哈哈，我是变态没错。

It's Friday. Dec 2011

To-Buy-List
1. New earphone
2. New converse
3. New clothes for new semester
4. Christmas Outfit
5. Christmas exchange present
6. Liese bubble hair dye
7. Liquid eye liner

To-Do-List
1. Secret A
2. Secret B
3. Secret C
4. Prepare unusual extraordinary presentation slides
5. Go on a date with beloved ones
6. Secret D
7. Wrap Christmas present

It's gonna be a great December! :D

Awake

I used to dream to be a singer or actress

eventhough I can't sing or act.

But it's quite wonderful when you just think of it

"One day, I'll be famous, pretty and RICH."

*haha*

All I want is to have a simple life.

A job that I would like to do,

A person that love me,

A few pets maybe.

It will be, someday, I believe.

Stuck with my project, for now.

Will complete it by Monday,

then I will be 80% freedom.

After presentation by the following Monday,

I will be 100% freedom!

No part time work, no homework :)

 I've some plans.

and I'm so excited about it.

Can't wait to finish all my tasks now!



很累。

做人，难。
做好人，更难。

如果 做每一样事情都要计较的话
会很累。

样样都在意的话
会更累。

我好累。
不过，很庆幸的是，
目前正在学习着如何看开一点。

要不断告诉自己，
不要让不值得的事情把自己搞得那么累。

会吃亏啊。XD

:D

You won't wanna know how much this means to me today.

♥ You made my day :) ♥



Thursday morning.

Is getting dizzy day by day.

The wall is spinning.
I puke. This morning.

Feel much better then.
Though my head is still kinda heavy after all.

Squeeze it

Mum laughed at me about how suck was my working performance today.

This sad.

She always like to ask about how's my work everytime I got home from work.

Today was my 1st day of work for my another part time job.

I told her it is necessary to achieve 22kg each day.

(that's the weight of boxes of contest form in it.)

"So, how much you get?" She asked.

"16kg something." I said.

"Then how about the others?" Asked again.

"22-23kg, roughly." I replied.

"You are poor." and there goes the laughter.

I don't get it why my parent is like that.

Apparently, most of the Chinese parents are LIKE THAT.

According to what I read in the books,

 "Parent will always be our great encouragement."

"Well done, you tried your best."

This will never ever happen to me in the real life.

This sad.

At this point, I usually lose my temper.

"Is my first day, okay?"

"They have been working since the past two weeks."

Turned my back and walked away.

This is why I have become the rude and bad temper one in the eyes of old folks recently.

Fuck it, I'm tired of being a good kid anyway.

Emotional do affects my mood.

and I'm really not in a good mood right now.

24102011

It's another day.
Hot one.

I just done ironing my clothes for tomorrow outing AND for Wednesday-Thursday-Friday's trip.
Not that I'm so darn excited about the trip. It's just, dude, I have no choice.
Tomorrow gonna meet up with my supervisor again about my abandoned baby.
Yea, I will be a cruel mum, if I'm one.
And is gonna be a WHOLE DAY outing tomorrow. From day to night.
I wish to go back home earlier if it's possible.
I would like to rest at home the day before and get all excited on the next day.
But, sometimes you just can't do whatever you want.
Thing just comes around and goes around. Deal with it.
And so, I am force to pack my bag now.
I don't wanna come back late and so tiring and I still have to pack my bag in the middle of night.

Another story.
I am a selfish bitch.
I don't like to share with others.
Precisely is, I don't like to share with others of stuff that what I think it's belong to me.
And I don't like to share stuff with those who show no interested either.
Save both of our time right? Done.
Sharing is good, if it's beneficial.
Sometimes people just don't get it why I hate sharing.
I just couldn't take it if the sharing is putting me behind.
I hate being left out.
It's like when you borrow something to someone, and will never return again.
Sorry, I am not that kind of people who will always put on a big wide smile on the face and saying it's okay about everything. I'm  totally not okay with it.
As I said, I am a selfish bitch.
It's really hard to make a fake smile to other people. Cause I just did it recently.
I don't really like to do that but I have to.
Well, it's a materialistic reality world after all.
I'll just have to accept the fact that people DO like fake smile.
and there's one more thing I hate to do is when people ask for my opinion for something whether is yes or no, I'll have to answer "Yes" even though the correct answer should be a "No" for me.
Because it's important to think about the consequences if I really say "No".
"Be smart." Sometimes I wish the world could just be a little more dum.
It might be more peaceful. Who knows?

Influenza

I am a sick cat now.
I would like to rest earlier, but, I'm not tired at all.
Because of this shit that I have to deal with.
The tissue paper is running out. Argh!

Okay, gonna bull shit something here to make myself tire.

The current Korean Drama that I'm watching now, there are two dramas actually.
I like one of the soundtrack in The Fugitive: Plan B.
This song :)

This a fast one and I really do like the chorus part. Sounds nice :)

What so great about the drama, of course is the Handsome officer.
This guy ♥

The another drama is City Hunter. Quite good. 

♥ Handsome guys ♥

I stopped to watch cause I couldn't find the 3rd disc. Argh!

Alright, I guess is enough crapping here.

I'm feeling a bit dizzy now. It's the med I think.

Gonna rest now.

Night.

and good afternoon in advance.

haha

Full = Hungry

I just checked my brain structure using the app on Facebook.

All you have to do, is to type any words and it will automatically generates and show you your brain structure for today.

Most of my friends have study, sleep, friendship and love in their brain structure.

I'm excited of what I'm going to get too and so I tried.

"Full" is the word I typed in and this is what I get.

Why I am always the hungry one? WHY

I just ate my lunch, that's why I typed the word "Full".

But others are all correct about what I'm thinking now.

(Especially "I want go home" and "want to play" haha)

Except HUNGRY. My stomach is full. No kidding.

No sad sad today cause I'm happy with my assignment marks :)

Alright, gotta back to revision now.

*nyaa~~*



Random

It's not like I'm getting all the good thing all the time.

How to be happy.

Oh no, wait, something went wrong.

Should be like this.

How Little Red will be happy.

Come on, television is part of my life.

I just can't live without it.

Been rolling on the bed and the floor too much recently.

Is time to get up :)

I'm back

Haven't post anything yet since I got back from trip to Melaka.
The last post was.. Ahem. JUST forget about it okay? haha
Yea, I went to Melaka and Port Dickson twice. For last semester.
Could I say this is awesome or what?

Erm. I could say, many things happened.
That I might ending up wiriting unfinished-post-and-give-up-writing-and-don't-give-a-damn-and-just-let-it-be-because-I'm-so-lazy if I mentioned every single details.

So, I have decided to flashback from now and start to think about what had just happen in the past few months.
Argh! This might be hard for me because I have brain that can only function 60%!
Not really.. 50% only maybe? or 40%? 10%? T^T
I could lost my memory just after I woke up in the next morning and couldn't remember anything from yesterday. Awful. Haha.

I will update my bloggie as soon as possible once I have browse through some pic that I wanted to post here :)

See ya!